the truth.

this entry may seem to offend or touch some sensitive nerves,but i dont care.i dont mean harm.

havent been going training,i feel so unfit.
i feel so foreign too,when i see blogs and the team.
one thing though,i feel my team is so much less political as compared to many stories i heard.
that is a relief.
attachements is starting to get better.
CI joanna is strict but she teaches us great stuff.
most of the staff,AN,HCAs,they are so pleasant to work with.
i feel so guilty when i forget stuff and they remind me quietly,smiles on their faces.
but im so sick of the poo.
whatever happened on tuesday,i'll never forget.
the tightness in the chest and sudden shortness of breath i experienced.
but monster made my day. :D

the national kayaking marathon is this sunday.
and im not in.well.
whoever human will definitely feel upset and wasted at the opportunity slip.
i may appear fine and everything,but im really disappointed.
it means quite alot to me.
but well.
blame myself for not working hard.
i thought i'll feel fine but imagining myself as the odd one when the team walks happily together with what they work hard for,its just like D:
alright.
i promised i wouldnt do emo.
im sorry.this post is kinda screwed and boring.
thanks for reading till here.
you guys,all the best for this sunday,row all the way. :)
take care of yourselves too,those with injuries.

and i miss school.

i miss 0611,i miss the lecture halls,i miss north canteen,i miss the toilet,i miss the TEAM,i miss nurul,i miss haslinda,i miss alene,i miss ANJU,JEN.
and you.
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