should i or should i not?

i always find myself desperately searching for excuses to cover up for what you lack.
i shouldnt have done that in the first place,because im seeping so deeply into the soon-to-be-mess which i dont want, to happen at the start of 2007.
so what should i do?

sunflower needs sunshine.

in your race,im last.




(suprisingly,im not upset at all.i just dont understand.i remember telling her im very happy.and the happiness comes truely from my heart.i'll keep this precious and rare happiness forever.)