lazy sunday.

lazy day.

the past few weeks have been hectic with super duper lots of junk.not all junk perhaps.
anyway.im SUPPOSED to be bloody happy today.but just cannot summon the STRENGTH to do it.perhaps im too tired.PERHAPS. (sun30july2006-12pm-loves!)*

AIYO.

i have so much things to say LO.but MISSY here just doesnt know where to start from.
i so pretty much wanna tell someone.i SO wanna tell YOU.and YOU.and YOU.
ARGH.DAMN DAMN DAMN!#^%%^&**(RAH!

i havent been mugging la.and i seriously dont know what i really value now.
everything's in such a FREAKING UGLY MESS and i find myself giving NO hoots to everything around me.

i appear damn playful and noisy.i say HAHAs in msn.i laugh i bitch i comment like CRAP.
but deep inside,i cant find gen already.
i told sioksiok that gen is back after trapping for 3 months.
im sorry.i cant deny the fact that everything's not the same again.

i get angry with myself over stuff,trivial lil matters.i get turned off by people.
WHAT THE HELL is wrong with me la.
i came to know ALOT .
maybe i should have just remain STUPID and IGNORANT in the 1st place.
than,i'll have felt more peaceful.
i used to trust people very easily,cause i CHOOSE to.
but nowadays,it seems tough to convince and get over my OWN barrier.
i need assurance.

anyway.i heard that guys' real maturity level is their age minus 3.(eg.18 this year,mindset:15)
i dont know if it's true.but no offence guys.
what about grrs?anyone knows?can tell me.thks.
oh oh.and.
the perfect height for a couple is actually 12cm apart.
erm.they say,'cause it's easier to hug.HAHA.i think it's DUMB.

well.just wanna share what i heard.
i'll sound VERY random these days.so.sory people.i just am TYPING what comes into my mind.

this is a rather or should i say DARN long BORINGGG entry.sorry to bore you people.
i hope all my body systems will pull themselves up before exams.
i NEED to do well.

i actually am feeling better now that i VENT everything here.
hopeyou guys had a good day,not like mine.
gotta go.ciao.LOVES!

emotionally un-STABLE

emotionally un-STABLE.

i DONT know WHY la.

today's sea training i rate it 4.5 out of 5 stars.
did T2 with nadz for the 1st time.not bad.we went PRETTY straight for a couple of laps.HA.keep it up babe!
ju and hsingyee did T1.Saw Coach chasing after 'em in his K.(oh my,coach is so cute LA!)
me and nadz took over T1 at the 2nd half.IT WAS DAMN DAMN FUN!
and Coach just keep on shouting "GO GEN GO!catch the water..and PULL!wheres your power?!SHOW IT TO ME!..CMON!"
i sprinted like MAD can.
HAHAHA.
training with Coach is DAMN FUN can.he's so MOTIVATING.and having him praised you is like WHEEES~
i LOVE coach!HEHE.
(oh my momo goodness,i sound so TEI.EEE-YER)
i feel so free and calm when i paddle in T1,with the wind blowing into my eyes..

oh ya.before i forget.we-ju,hsingyee and i are gonna do 5 standard pull-ups w/o support by 31oct2006 in order for our win of MACS upsized with apple pie and sundae from COACH.
HOHO.
but till now,only our senior LYUINA managed to do it.HAHA.
wait and see people>.<

as i say,my body system have been giving me troubles.think my MIND system is getting worse too.i seem easily pissed nowadays.
im so sorry to whoever whom i've pissed.please forgive gen.
i dont wanna pretend like nothing happened.

anyway,i heard something today that i thought wouldnt affect me ANYMORE.
but.it turns out that im wrong.my mind was pretty preoccupied by the thoughts of it.
worse,im having addition probs these few days.
i know im so fucking silly,I NEED A BREAK man!
a break from the outside world.i seem to have lost myself these days.

im really in a state of confusion la.please someone,tell me what to do.
eh guys.why are u so controlling?why are you so anxious?
eh grrs.why are you acting cute?why are you so bitchy?
i want answers.

RAH!
meanwhile,while im still EMO-ing,enjoy this pictures.




who will walk with me..towards the end.






see this damage thing?this bus DID it.
HAHA.












where were you when i needed you?






OKAY!oh wells.just put up with my rubbish for the time being.thks ppl.LOVES!
anw.jam.lets go the FLEA one day.=)i cant wait.
PS:IM SO DAMN RANDOM LA.ARGH.whatever.
ciao.sleeping time.

rumble rumble.

rumble rumble.

im so sleepy.RAH!
was trying to mug with ju today.but nth went in.HAA~
and DAMN it.my hp HANGED on me.got me into a state of depression for awhile.HAHA.
here are some evidence of what we did today=)ERM.but look carefully.HEHEHE.

----->LOOK!
----->HAHA







ok.we were just trying to brush up on our art skills,in e midst of veins and arteries.=X

this was what i turned to,DESTRESS!
i know you cant belief it.NEITHER can i.=D




MUG BREAK!





















hidden talent.

ciao.zzz.loves!
ps:987 fm is worth a listen!X)
ps:sea training tomorrow.i cant wait!

ACHES.

ACHES.
i mean physically and a lil of mentally.
had ISG today and i did BADLY.DARN.
i cant totally blame my INJURED thigh muscle.my body system have been a lil of haywire these days.i NEED to pay grandaunt a visit..SOON! (you see,my grandaunt's a CHINESE physician,and i only belief in HER diagnosis.tee-hee)
but wells.for today,it was an eye-opener and lesson learnt.i saw many DAMN HIONG runners.HAHA.
before training,hsingyee pulled me and ju to be EXTRAS for this channel 5 new show,Parental Guidance(will be broadcasted in october.we are in the 5th episode.rmb to check it out!=D)
mediacorp crew was shooting around NYP,and it suddenly dawned upon me that celebrities suffers ALOT too.HAA.(i saw Adrian Pang slide off this SIT-UP thing.dont say it out ok.SHH=X)

lousy evening training.BUT tomorrow WILL be BETTER.=)

anyway.the grrs fav lil tunes during training goes like THIS:
(1)its a sunny yellow banana day
do the cow cow yellow banana way..
(2)imagine me and you,you and me,
the only one for me is you, you for me so happy together...

ciao.loves!

holy spirits come DOWN to earth.

holy spirits come DOWN to earth.
ok.i know.it's "come UP to earth".BUT.i prefer to belief it's from HEAVEN.(lame.i dont care LA.)
anyway if you dont know what im talking about,it's the 1st day of 7th month a.k.a 1st day of opening of the GATES OF HELL.was on the way home and ju asked me if i actually believed in GHOSTS.wells.i belief.i mean.no harm will come to us if we dont make fun.if you didnt do anything but still see you-know-what,it's either your immune system/YING&YANG is WEAK,OR you are just plain SUAY.ok.TOUCHWOOD.

*flashback*
was tuning into 98.7fm and this daniel ong was saying that "8 out of 10 singaporeans are ADDICTED to their hps and the WORST thing is that even while NOOGLING NOOGLING*grins*,they DONT SWITCH OFF THEIR HPS!imagine if the cam video functions are ON,all these NOOGLES would make 'em the next TAMMY"
OH HELL.cant these people just SHUT UP and stop mentioning HER?
i seriously pity her LA.im SURE there are TONS out THERE who do more than THAT.WELLS.
ok enough of that.
ERM.i know im talking very randomly today.NEVER YOU MIND.=)
let me end this properly.

tonight's the debut of MAGGIE & ME on channel 5 at 8pm.PLEASE WATCH!
FIONA XIE IS SO SO HOT!X)
ok byes!loves!
ps:i cant wait for tomorrow's ICG training and our KYK team training!
THE TEAM RAWKS!=DDD

SHIOK.

SHIOK.
the word for today.
ok maybe not.'cause of 4104 test.i ADMIT.i DID NOT mug.
but wells.OK GEN.you are gonna put ALL entertainment aside and mug HARD for SEM END.easier said than done.BUT.im gonna PROVE it people.X)

lets talk about the HAPPY stuff.THE TEAM did 10..and i mean 10 WARM-UP ROUNDS around the tracks,8 circuits with a total of 320 crunches,160 STANDARD pushups,and i mean the MALE version OK.(ME.i mean the GRRS did it!nice job,babes!)and120 dips.and lastly a cool down jog.pretty tough but ENJOYED the process.FUN! FUN! FUN!
-MISSION ACCOMPLISHED- (X
and alfred treat us grrs CHOCOLATE SUNDAE!thanks,dude!

ok im jumping subject.
let you in on a SECRET.GUYS ARE WHINNY.and they are getting WHINN-IER.RAH!
their momo-s are giving 'em too much FEMALE HORMONES.and GEN CANT STAND IT.
guys,dont deny it.ok?=D

anyway.ms gurung teach us a new song today.come lets sing together!
NOBODY LOVES ME,
EVERYBODY HATES ME,
IM GONNA EAT SOME WORMS
BIG FAT JUCIY ONES,
LONG THIN SLIMY ONES
IM GONNA EAT SOME WORMS...!
(you gotta sing it with the handsigns you do for TWINKLE TWINKLE LIL STARS.but heres a suggestion.just MOVE YOUR BODY,SHAKE IR SHAKE IT! =D)
ok.its kinda childish but wells.it's FUN cause it makes you LAUGH.
laughter's the BEST medicine,agree?
ms mok taught us a song too.but im gonna post it the next time.i dont want the NURSERY teachers to come COMPLAINING.X)))
until then..see you my LOVELY PEOPLE!
-not a pretty face but wells.i have pretty people AROUND me.just let me DROOL over them.X)

breathe and pace with me

breathe and pace with me.

cannot believe i ACTUALLY make a blog.
ive lots to VOMIT HERE.
gen's quite enjoying her new life after so many things that happen.
let's not talk about the past.
recently,i just coincidently watch this channel U programme,Let's Shoot.
the topic was about "Are Singaporeans Happy?"
make me do quite alot of serious thinking.
'am i happy?'i started SERIOUSLY thinking.i cant belief i DONT KNOW.
in the programme,the hosts and guests talk about different things that make singaporeans happy,and im SO shock that most singaporeans on a street survey admitted that MONEY makes them HAPPY.holy goodness~but wells.TYPICAL singaporeans(why was i even shock?)
i cant say IM HAPPY EVERYDAY.but certain lil things that happen MAKES MY DAY.
eg.when my kyk team CHIONGed for our circuits,1 particular day that i remembered,12july.the girls are really GREAT.you could FEEL our team spirit.=D
anyway.ANJU is great.EVERYTHING.im sure LOTS will AGREE with ME.X)
and.thanks JAM.for always being there for me.i LOVE my BIG SIS.
oh.coming to what ive been doing.sea training yesterday was cancelled.but ju,sam,gerd and i went down.it was a GREAT opportunity for me to try T1.i DIDNT cap at all.=DDD(ok,i know i SO cannot compare with like KAZILLION people,but i'll do MY BEST.)
and my strokes are improving.RAH!
went dowwn to Macritchie to support the seniors who are competiting.
was really a good EYE-OPENER.
and i saw SHYAN,my cous.he's really good CAN.X)nice one,SHYAN!
went off earlier with anju.was really tired,guess it's course of morning rowing.i so NEED to built up MY STAMNA!
anyway,anju and i have ICG on wed.12 aug is relay dualaton-MY 1st TIME.(it's a run paddle run race.OH MAN.)20 aug is new balance REAL RUN at sentosa.IM LOVING THEM!i know im not gonna win anything(but i NEVER know=D)im just gonna have FUN.X)
im gonna stop here.HAVENT MUG FOR tomorrow's 4104.RAH RAH RAH!
(ps:i know you guys are gonna miss me.X) gen'll BE BACK!)
(pss:anyway,siok siok.HAPPY ADVANCE 17!)