28-30th september.

28-30th september.

thursday hangout with ash was fun.
we EAT and EAT and EAT.instead of our planned sit-down-at-cafe-and-talked over-drinks.
well nevermind.its always fun pigging out like MAD once in awhile and not worrying about unhealthy FATS.
;)
ive not much FATS to lose anyway,so just EAT.thats the good thing about not having BABY FATS.HAHA.(damien,dont CHA envy?;D)
so we did took lots of our ugly fugly eating actions.BUT.i lose all of 'em.DAMN.im REALLY sorry ash.send me again!
these are just the lil pathetic amount i have in my folder.
















so.we promised on BEN&JERRY the next hangout with more cash in our POCKETS.
not the $1.20 my dear.WHEE.
and oh!i cant wait for mambo nights.
just cant wait to see you again!
LOVELOVE. X)

29th sept.
friday morning was rowing fun with T1.the pace it glides in the water.OH THE BABY!
*grins*
anju and i decided to head for some bestie hangout and we got ourselves COOL shoes.
and loads of gossip and bitching. ;D
in the mood for movies,we chose THE HAUNTED APARTMENTS.
though its s'ppose to be a horror movie,the film just had a twist of humour.FUNNY CAN.
interesting boring i say.
well well.so here.



tried out iSQUEEZE.all along,i dont like massages.so.no comments.


























30sept.(sat)
hi got S1 today.i pretty much expected it.but.so what?
im gonna go for weekday rowings and proved i can do a T1.im gonna ace my T1.
watch me.
;D
coming back about today's training.
it was kinda bad.
i did complete my 3 triangles.
but i felt so drained and upset deep inside.
i kept telling myself not to let personal emotions get involved with trainings but i realised im still a human.i'd say i didnt have that will to control my emotions today.
i feel so tiny and unprofessional.
i just didnt have the mood today when everyone's happily playing in the RAIN.
just sat by myself on S1 as the waves crashed into my boat's side.how i wish the waves will swipe away all the lil bits of unhappiness i had inside me.
everything went fucking wrong.
i've been feeling so much like a beggar,not 'cause of cash terms,not 'cause of physical materials.
ive been living my life like a bed of sunflowers with roses thorns in between and lil pieces of glasses scattered over the edge of the bed.
one wrong move i'll be miserable for life.
DAMN IT.thats how ive been feeling.
SCARY aint it?

i remember joining NYP kayaking just for the fun of it.i didnt have any sports background though i came from a family with sportsmen and women.
i was just more active and hyper in school then anyone else.

but i realised everytime i paddle and sprint with the wind at my neck,i feel a sense of joy and pride i never felt in my entire life.i saw people competing.
i want to prove to myself and the world.
I CAN DO IT.

talking about CAN-DO,
im really grateful to Jonathan,my dear senior.
you're forever NYP KAYAKING TEAM's HAPPY STAR.
you never fail to make the TEAM smile.
and your words today touched my heart and lift it up.
i felt really motivated.THANK YOU.
the team would be boring without you.not only joanathan.
NYP KAYAKING TEAM wouldnt be complete without any of you.
you filled GEN's life with special colors and you guys already took up a space so much in my heart.
thanks and LOVE,GEN.
LOVELOVE i mean. ;)

sorry if ive bore you with my long entry and
large spitful of heartfelt emotions i have deep in THERE.
please do tag and tell me how you feel.
WAH SHIT.im so polite today.
ok.JUST TAG LAH.
;D

thanks for the concern you guys showered over me. im feeling MUCH MUCH BETTER now.
im just gonna treasure what i have now,and balance them on my libran scale with strength and peace.im working hard so must you guys!lets work hard for our goals!
YOSHing in the rain and rushing to clubhouse for our 17 plates of fried rice with EXTRA RICE and EGG,today,was GREAT.
LOVELOVE.i cant wait for the next MM.and our evil plans.HEHE.
oh mokhsingyeee,lets go for movies!and our promised retail therapy date!
anju,more movies and everything,PLEASE! ;D













i just smack this cockcroach to its long-awaited death after its long-term hiding in my drawer to get a bite of my DARS WHITE CHOCOLATE.
HOHO.

WHEE.

im going shopping with mom tomorrow!YAY!

when i was.

when i was..

when i was 12,i dream of becoming an author,spinning up fascinating tales of this lil planet.
i'll make my characters so ruddy with life,they practically need birth certificates.
the plot i've mapped out for them is grand,simple and gripping.
i thought of it all.
but.
in spite of the obvious,shinning promise of it,there comes this particular day when i realize that the whisper that has been pestering me all along from the back of my mind is speaking the flat,awful truth:it wont work.
we are living in this cruel,selfish industry whereby dreams,are just dreams.
without advertising and popularity,nothing will come out.
thats how this world moves along.
no matter how much talent you've got,as the SINGAPORE saying goes:NO MONEY NO TALK.
money indeed makes the world go round.
so.i aborted this plan of mine,and decided to settle for the sad,practical singapore truth.
to do something you can always fall back on.
i left no tears to brawl as i dump all my scraps of what-could-have-been a great talk-about book.
i knew i gotta move on.
but i'll be back.
;)

and talking about money.everyone's nuts over it.
you see us doing part-timing to earn those cold hard cash.
but seriously why do we resort to all these when we can actually sleep in late,hang around and cosy up to our family and friends?
instead of mooing our way up to backaches like some strong hard bulls,why dont we take a step back and appreciate our surrounding sculptures and mankind?
to those who do their jobs because of your passion for it,congrats and keep it up.
to those who do their jobs for the increase of the digits in your bank account(which rarely happens),go out get a life,and get a new job.one which will kill your brain cells.
;)
(i dont mean us students.but all you sicky WORKING adults.)

i'll talk about my OTHER dreams the next time round.
WHEEPEEDOODOO.
exactly a week from GEN'S BIRTHDAY!WHEE.

anyway.training today was great with TEAM!i was lousy LAH.couldnt climb that dumb stairs.im gonna like work my ass off,climb stairs everyday to get to my house at 12th storey(!)=X.

well.no pain.no gain.i'll benefit from the climbing.better stamina and NICE FIRM BUTT.WHEE. ;D

alright so now.im gonna go to sleep for morning rowing tomorrow.ooh ash!i cant wait to see you! ;))

LOVELOVE.

sometimes.

sometimes.

sometimes i just wish i can disappear.into thin air.and you guys cant see me.but i can. ;)
i'll sneak behind your backs and eavesdrop on all your lil secrets. ;)

sometimes i just wish i can disappear.
so i can shut the world out of me and let ME take a breather.

sometimes i just wish i can disappear.
so i can let you guys miss me. ;)

sometimes i just wish i can disappear.
so i can let you guys take a breather.from chasing me.from catching up.
i know im too fast for you. X)

sometimes i just wish i can disappear.sometimes.sometimes.
thats for me to know and for you to find out. ;D


LOVELOVE.PHOTOS UP SOON.REAL SOON.

WHEEPEEDOODOO.

WHEEPEEDOODOO!

it have been 3 fun FUN FUN days!

it was fun of us wanting to sleep early for the next day but ended up watching FRAGILE.
it was fun jumping on damien's WATERBED.
it was fun with all the bloody hunGRRRY MOSQUITOS sucking our sweetilicious blood.
it was fun dragging and nagging at ms mok to wake up.
IF NOT FOR MY NAGGING,YOU WOULDNT HAVE SO MUCH FUN AT SENTOSA,MHY! ;D
it was fun stamping our touch-everywhere fingers with LOVE on our tuna&egg sandwiches.
just for the TEAM.X)
it was fun preparing our too-good-to-be-true fruit salad JUST FOR THE TEAM.
it was fun yakking and jabbling with everyone in the team fighting for a part in our sentosa LIVE forum.
it was NOT fun getting drag on the sand,then SWING into the sea. ;D
it was fun poking our limited shared forks into the cake without even properly cutting it.
it was fun.REALLY FUN.to take pictures of everybody's lil movements.UBER FUN!
it was fun playing of frisbee and volleyball and on-the-move tanning.WHEE.
it was fun pigging out on chips like theres no tomorrow.
it was fun eating sandy food because of our guys' strong sand-kicking legs.
it was fun when the sunset and only i knew it but the rest are busy with their WHEEPEEDOO.
it was fun getting MY LOBSTERY BURNT BACK.
it was fun screaming in pain while showering.
it was fun as we trudged our way to the next destination for MM.
it was fun sleeping my/our way through during of what's-supposed-to-be MM.
it was fun to be one of the last waking up so comfortably.thanks DAN. ;D
it was fun chatting with joel and hsingyee at macs for more than an hr.

it was fun watching LIL MAN with elaine.
it was fun at YAKUN.
it was fun walking along the streets of town and yakk like no one's business.
it was fun,the bus ride back to my HOME SWEEEEET HOME.
it was fun,my whole CAMP.

it was fun,with the TEAM around.just fun.
thank you guys for making it possible.
though i know i couldnt really summon much feelings of fun throughout.
im really proud to be in NYP KAYAKING TEAM.thats for real.

as for the pictures,i'll set up the link soon,cause theres' really too many beautifuls i have to show to everyone,about OUR TEAM.



i woke up feeling so sleepy and my bed decided to lock me in.
and i didnt went for sea training.damn.
sorry joel.i did promised to go 'cause i demanded you to go.
gonna work full shift today from 1230 to 830pm.
anybody wanna come visit me at ARMY MARKET?

on another note,ive been thinking about this particular topic,
and i just want to share my OWN thoughts.
a religion is something you belief in,not OBSESS in.
the way some people worship,is uber scary and nerve-chilling.
if you ever ask me what i live for,
i'll tell you I LIVE FOR MYSELF.i wanna do well and let the world be proud of ME.
8 out of 10 parents(im sure)bring their child into this world,hoping for their children to grow up into someone useful and outstanding.
not to obsess in anybody.
not wanting to belief in something doesnt mean our hearts are hardened and black.
(no wait.black is uber cool and sexy.you just decide for yourself what color is ugly LAH.)
'cause i can still feel the arteries and veins doing their proper job,and i havent stop breathing,my heart muscles are still exercising.
so how can my heart be hardened?
convince me.if you fail to do so,then just shut up.& stop obsessing.you'll just make me hate you.

talking about personal feelings,im the sort if you cant convince me about something,i'll not let you have your way.
you step on my toes?i'll step yours back and rip your slippers or shoes.
but it all depends on my moods.

so now.for today.im in super WHEEPEEDOODOO mood,cause i just came back from having fun wih my team.its time to have BRUNCH and get off to work.
i'll be back for more.
ciao.
LOVELOVE.

YAU's HOUSE.

YAU'S HOUSE.

uh-huh.
erm..YEA?!
hsingyee.check.
derek.check.
damien.check.
GEN.YEA. ;D
pathetic response.

im too lazy to think of anything now LAH.
THE REST ARE FIGHTING FOR THE LAPPY.(X
will post pictures after i get back to HOME SWEET HOME.

erm.thats all OK?

BYE.
aiya.dont read my entry LAH.stupid entry.oh but too bad.you've reached here.

SENTOSA HERE WE COME!

WHEE.

OK BYE.

healing touch.

Healing Touch.

what exactly gives you guys healing touch?
be it an object,a color or words.
in your deepest,most feared moments.
what are you thinking?
i love to picture the sunset with the sun's lovely purple and red goodbye rays glistening across the blanket of clouds.
my mind takes a breather.everything seems to stop.for that rare moment.
the sun's rays embrace my whole soul,telling me to not be afraid.to grab hold of every moment every breath ive got in me.
nothing is impossible.impossible is nothing.NOTHING AT ALL.

what about the lil ones?
what serve as healing touch to them?
im talking about those who's undergoing puberty stage in their early 10s.
besides telling them to reflect and deciding for themselves what's right and wrong..
what can we actually do to help them nurse their grudges against trivial matters which shouldnt even exist at all?
you may think.they are kids,dont worry,they'll forget everything after you buy them a gift.
i disagree to that thinking.
they may plant that hatred deep down in them,that everyone around them,including themselves,will suffer in time to come.
i really tried my best,but new problems always crop up.
tell me what to do,
to save all of them.

blood teared eyes slashed with love.

like a rose.

like a rose.

You treat me like a rose
you give me room to grow
you shone the light of love on me
and gave me air so i can breathe
you open doors that close
in a world where anything goes
you give me strength so i stand tall
within this bed of earth
just like a rose.

we shouldnt expect too much about anything,for we never know when it'll fall on us.

i hope all will go well for sentosa trip.

last day of ATTACHMENT!

LAST DAY.

i'll just let my pictures speak.further details updated soon.














































ciao.YAWNS.

SHEESH.

SHEESH.

i have so much to say till i dont know what to type in here.
okay.
just one sentence.
good night everyone,have a gorgeous sleep.
WHEE.

lovesGEN.
remember to check out the TEAM's blog regularly for updates!
;D
(no excuses for not knowing the updates.)

lumps of grumps.

lumps of grumps.

i really appreciate this.thanks derek.oh anyway,.please give this poem a name. ;)

ties that bound the inner shrine
words that string these new found dimes
faith that's drawn across our lives
rise to see how our destiny flies

friends that mould each others heart
with love and passion each thee impart

held against the greatest treasure
they pale in comparison with you to measure.

this poem.
it totally matches how i wish everything will be like,now.

sometimes,we plunge ourselves so deep into the world of comfort and pampering,that we seemed to lose all sense of consideration for others.
we take them for granted,we take what we shouldnt,and we didnt return.

it really hurt me alot when after so much effort ive put in,i received one bad comment,a non-verbal one.
i dont know how to describe in words,nor drawings;though they speak a thousand words,how i feel.
to some,all these doesnt matter,but i cant just take it as it goes.

i really thanks those who've been by my side,always putting a smile not just on my face,in my heart.i know that even if i fall,you'll just be behind me.
thanks momo,for all your nagging and teaching,i know its all for my own good.i love you,momo.
and thanks aunt joan,for inspiring me to taking nursing,im gonna do it with passion than step onto a bigger piece of land and fulfill what i once told you.i miss you.

this post has no real intentions,and i swear i dont mean to dramatize so much,of sounding so emo.my fingers are just responsible of following my heart.

ps:i almost freeze and die of boredom today.

i know i'll be there when you need me,all smiles,but will you?

back to training.WHEE.

back to training.

yeap!
its been long since ive gone for land training!i miss the people!

headed down for training after shift at Geylang Polyclinic.
its kinda less hectic than in the hospital,kinda boring.but thank goodness i was scheduled to the Dressing room today with real nice Senior staff nurses.they are so knowledgeable and fun to talk to.(will post up pictures soon.)
and i saw SO many RTA(road traffic accident),diabetes,and infection cases.
the pus,warts and blood-bad enough to make you skip lunch.
but well.it'll be a miracle if you hear GEN SKIP her meals. ;D
learn alot about wound dressing and different cleansing agents.
cant wait for tomorrow's new scheduled room. X)

back to today's training.
i didnt do pretty well today for the 30mins out-of-campus run.
a lil disappointing.
but wells.it was due to some lil STUPID factors i dont wish to elaborate.
we did new weights,kinda cool and fresh after so many months of the same old gym training.
one requires us to STICK our ass out.WHEE.
really straining on the back thigh muscles but it trains our back,so yea..
;)
we had a debrief with damien implementing my idea of team bonding.
thks captain ;D
and we are having a NYP KYK trip soon!on 21sept!WHEE.i CANT wait!SENTOSA here i come!
X)
by the way,i just found out,its jeremy's birthday that day.LUCKY YOU.
and we are gonna have our watersports camp with the DB,swimming(?) and..... people.
seriously cant wait for it too.its on the 29sept-1oct.
next week will be a busy week with WHEE WHEE MM(thks derek!),training,work,kyk trip.
WHOA.
derek cai owes me a poem.
HEHE.
WHERE IS IT?!

gonna sleep now,charge my battery for tomorrow's work.
ciao people.peace to you.

so i shall.

so i shall.


just the other day,i only realised the reason behind the TORTOISE in everyone's msn nick.
Steve Irwin's death even hit the headlines,but well,i was too drained and lazy to even look at the papers LAH.and i missed tv news due to late return from work OK.
ok LAH,i was just making excuses,but REALLY LAH.

im sure many people have been blogging about Mr Irwin's death that few days when he just passed away,let me be the last LO.
;D

i s'ppose the tortoise is the closest you can get to a crocodile(what he's famous for i guess),erm,since it is grrreen and kinda lives in the water.

i think it's mean,but i kinda have to stifle a laugh when i heard how he died.i mean,of all methods to pass away!very suay LAH.Stingrays always seem so harmless and delicious with sambal sauce until we forget why they are called STINGrays!

but seriously,his death is a lost to mankind.i mean who else dares to summon such courage to make such dangerous moves to get close to the wild.
Singaporeans confirm chop chop gurantee 101% dont dare.
besides KIASU,remember KIASI?
he's instill in most of XIN JIA PO REN.
sad for us.
GAG.

yes,though the world is shocked at both the suddenness and the manner of his death in the middle of a flourishing career,we should celebrate the life of Irwin.it contains so many exciting past experiences from nature which none of us,in our lifetime will get to.

right.lets change topic.

i spent almost the whole day cleaning up my room and staying at home,being my usual filial self.
HEHE.
and after dinner,i just suddenly have the mood to prepare dessert.
after much opening of cans,getting of utensils and cutting,my bowl of fruit cocktail looks so ready to meet my gastric juices LAH.
HAHA.
im not able to share a picture of it with you,'cause before i knew it,erm,the bowl is EMPTY.
;D
i came through a number of really WHOA poems.this is from Derek,my kyk teammate.
thumbs up,sexy waxed-legs.

Maximus
darkened with clouds
the skies became dull
roaming the land
of what remains foul
tears were falling
glistening on those cheeks
thoughts were appaling
whatever hope; seems so bleak
until you came
you broke the night
my lighthouse my guide
with you it seems right
the clouds were pulled
the rays shot through
upon my lands of waste,
it tore up the past
brought forth the new
at last my land chaste.

i think ending my entry with this is so beautiful.
WHEE.
so i shall do it.
LOVES.

;D

;D

im so TRA-LA-LA happy today.(forgive my nowadays primary 4 standard CHIM descriptive words..HEHE.)

did all i could for my last day at ward 9c.ng tubED,diaperED,showerED,fED,commodED,paraED,what else didnt i do you tell me?
;)
had plenty of opportunities to do what i wanted 'cause nobody's there to FIGHT WITH ME.
WHEE!
that reminds me of the PRIVILEDGE of being an only child.
i dont have to quarrel,stratch and fight to get what i want.
but i need to bargain LAH.
HAHA.
i'll talk about that next time.
back to today.
wells.finished up around 3 and headed off to work.













MY 1st day at RETAIL!
WHEE.
i learnt to stocked up,serve customers,clean up,NETS transaction,cash registered,log out,accountED the day sales.
all i never done before-FUN!
really braincell-tickling,but i enjoy the process of learning.
i always do.
oh and i get great discounts as staff,shawna-the-big-lady-boss is real cool and fab.
i have a SENIOR who ORIENTATED and guide me throughout.
thks HIDDY my yaya senior.for all the bullshitting and corny jokes we shared.
X)
reached home an hr plus ago,but still feel so SUNSHINE. ;))
ive been feeling real great these days,please whatever GODS up there,keep GEN blessed THIS WAY.
LOVES.

was just talking to ms mok the other day.
im ready for flings.

ciao.

offical end of hospital attachment.

official end.

yep.today's officially the end of Hospital attachment for sem1.(though i've to replace for tue's absent,tmr.)

when we had to finalise our log books about our objectives and thoughts about these 2 weeks,
i realise,suddenly,that ive loads to write.plenty enough to flood the whole book.
nowadays,ive been having deep,quiet thoughts within myself,wherever and whenever i happen to be.
sometimes,its good to allow your mind to wonder and wander about your doings.
you'll grow up.trust me.
but remember to bring it back to reality LAH. ;D

it have been a fulfilling 2 weeks of experience with lots of coaching from my beloved seniors and most of the staff nurses(SN) and assistant nurses(AN) in Ward 9c.
i seen plenty of action among the doctors;getting blood culture,pleural tap,lumbar puncture.
and ive faced ALL my fears.ok.maybe MOST of it.'cause i havent got the chance to see/do LAST OFFICES.(for you people out there,it means cleaning dead bodies LAH.)
but showering,diaper-changing(with all the different colors.HAHA),bloody injections with big FAT poking needles,puky sputum and SO ON,sees GEN remaining calm and PERFECT.
;D
so ya.im DARN PROUD.
doris foong wrote this in my log book.
"Genevieve is proactive in her learning needs,demonstrates much enthusiasm in her learning and achieving all her objectives."
WHEE.
why didnt she write "keep it up"
ARGH.
X)

so at the end of the shift,i went around asking to take PICTURES.
HEHE.























ashley with her new-found-vitaminC.she got attracted to the cover.SHEESH.;my beloved AN,mariam and senior Mel.;LOVES my ward 9c!;1 of my cublicle.;my sweeeeet seniors(mizah,ash,jane,gen);my cubicle's fav SN,devi.;another SO-NICE SN;my locker no.7.

























with SISTER TILA & SN Devi;love from sister;locker key;sharon,sheela-fab seniors,and me.;i'll never forget these.


it was a real busy day doing all the chores with MARIYAT(your name is here!)saying,"ahh,last day right..do ALL for me..GO!
HAHA.and i was there HAPPILY and DILIGENTLY and EFFICIENTLY doing everything.
nevermind,mariyat,just you watch. ;D

anyway.some random thought.
do i look like a malay?or chinese malay?
'cause i remembered in the early sem,people will come asking me if im not pure blood.
HAHA.
damn can.my parents give me this CHINA face and you ask if im mixed.
HOLY HOLLA.
i received more than 3 comments in the ward,with nurses,seniors and patients asking me.
i remembered going into 1 cubicle with a senior Sharon(who really look malay)and both of us were telling this chinese patient WO MEN SHI HUA REN(we are chinese),but he continues speaking MALAY.
how funny can that be LAH.
and another senior was telling me i look like im born to a malay AH PA and chinese MOMO.
HAHA.
very hilarious.
but at least we are kept entertained.
oh and,im really glad that the GOLD-DIGGER(the uncle who plays with his faeces)stops his hobby already.HAHA.
he became so very lovable.
;D

think i will stop here for today.really drained.needa take a nap.
WHEE.
i'll end this entry with a photo the whole of ward 9c will go gaga over.X)



TA-DAH!













Dr jeremy sun is being missed by everyone 'cause he've been transferred to i-dont-know-where.
DAMN.
he really is freaking HOT.just that he isnt photogenic.
HAHA.
(anyway mariyat,stop gagaing.im jealous.=D)

today's official end of hosp attachment,nexy week's polyclinic attachment.anyone care to visit me at Geylang Polyclinic?im gonna see ANJU GURUNG again!WHEE!i miss you hon!
anyway,im starting work tmr.as in,PAID job.=D

seeyou.

life's disappointments are harder to take if you dont know any swear words.

HEHE.

back to MISSY after PARRRTY.

back to MISSY after PARRRTY.

yea.so i FINALLY went to SINGAPORE SEVENTEEN PARTY after 3 years.HAHA.
was kinda boring till..we SABO-ED ms gurung up on stage.
HEHE.
the host was as usual,the funny charming Randall Tan.




it was PUNK ROCK night.but..the crowd werent that obedient if you ask me.
we were included.TEE-HEE.











she had that refusal face at first that randall was SCARED.
but you see,how well she ROCKED everyone during the performance with her PROPS. ;D
needless to say,she won.
OOH MY HON!
E> and a big hug.









the rest of the night.













the party ended early.around 9.
so we decided to hang around town.
ju,ms mok,justin,cyrus,charles,marcus,zhihan and me.
we tried sneaking into Naughty Girl at orchard tower,but damn,the security was TIGHT.
to you noobies(HAHA) who have no idea what's Naughty Girl,it's a pub for BAK POHS.
erm.did i get the spelling right?
i wanna go and see them!
WHEE!
oh ya.i so bloody feel like digging out the eyeballs of those CHEENA DI KO AH PEKS.
DAMN.FUGLY UGLY CHEENA DI KO.*puke*
they were practically STARING and SMIRKING at us girls.
thank god we had gentlemen-ly guy friends who tried all means to protect us.
thanks hons.
;D

so today,i went back to ttsh for shift again.
super slacky today.
was just hanging around and doing my careplan due tomorrow.
TOMORROW! ARGH!
gotta go now.have less than 5 hours of sleep.
SHEESH.

if you want the rainbow,put up with the rain.

30 days to GEN's birthday.

i did my 1st Admission today.just before shift end.
WHEE.
i COPE alot things from prep and storeroom.
SHEESH.

going for Singapore Seventeen Party 2006 tmr evening.
cant wait!
i waited so long-3 years.
DAMN.
here's the ROCK style invitation card.
supree cool.
im gonna charge my phone up to full batt to blast the lens tmr!
;D






attachment is draining,fun though.
ciao people.YAWNS.


ps:3o days to GEN's 17th.WHEE!

gone for good

gone for good.

promises are meant to be kept.unless.
what do you think?

i found my answer as i wondered the streets of lavender yesterday.
sometimes it's good to take a breather,from the rest of the world,and be alone for awhile.
reflecting and reminising about the past.
dont worry about gen.she have everything under control/controlled.
she'll do it her way.
im gone for good.GEN is here.

(by the way.i've found a job!whee!more cash coming MY WAY!OLE OLE.oh im so sick of being so budgeted.)

attachment have been great but draining.i couldnt row properly yesterday LAH.
was basically just tanning. ;D


a healed wound will still hang around to remind us of our careless fall,forbidding our system to err once again.

i love everyone.it's my fault.

i love everyone.it's my fault.

it's my fault for feeling awful in the morning during attachment days.
it's my fault for pouting when i did not receive a single sms.
it's my fault for looking at stuff and getting loser-ish jealous.
it's my fault for feeling insecured most of the time.
it's my fault for putting you first,in front of me.
it's my fault for saying 'im fine' nowadays,when im not.
it's my fault that i never find the time to have a heart-to-heart talk with my loved ones.
it's my fault that i dont know who to msg to when i need you.
it's my fault that im too sensitive.
it's my fault that i miss everyone.
it's my fault.

really tired.mentally.


ps:1 month to ASH's birthday! ;D