finally.

ive fallen ill.
bad sorethroat,bad bad muscle aches,baddie shoulder and wrists injuries and crazy BAD fever.
(pardon the ill for remembering only the word,BAD.)

im supposed to be resting but seriously,ive slept for 20hours since yesterday.
eaten alot alot alot of medications,beside PARACEPTAMOL.
i missed watching the marathon,i missed the supposed-to-be shopping trip with mameh.
darn.
and ive not done the study of enternal feeds.and ive not PRE-read on any disease.
and ive not.and ive not.
DARNNNNNNNNNNN.
i totally understand the feelings of the patients.
being ill and missing out on alot of things and you cant do what you want.
WAHLAO.
i doubt most of you know ive fallen ill.
now that you know,please send some love to 1900-manyyylovetoGEN,texting or calls are accepted.
or if you're willing,come down to ttsh from mon-wed(1pm-9pm),thur-fri(7am-3pm) and give me
stuff that spell LOVEEE.
:)
ok.i can feel my forehead warming up again.
oh please.i dont wanna take MC tomorrow.

the truth.

this entry may seem to offend or touch some sensitive nerves,but i dont care.i dont mean harm.

havent been going training,i feel so unfit.
i feel so foreign too,when i see blogs and the team.
one thing though,i feel my team is so much less political as compared to many stories i heard.
that is a relief.
attachements is starting to get better.
CI joanna is strict but she teaches us great stuff.
most of the staff,AN,HCAs,they are so pleasant to work with.
i feel so guilty when i forget stuff and they remind me quietly,smiles on their faces.
but im so sick of the poo.
whatever happened on tuesday,i'll never forget.
the tightness in the chest and sudden shortness of breath i experienced.
but monster made my day. :D

the national kayaking marathon is this sunday.
and im not in.well.
whoever human will definitely feel upset and wasted at the opportunity slip.
i may appear fine and everything,but im really disappointed.
it means quite alot to me.
but well.
blame myself for not working hard.
i thought i'll feel fine but imagining myself as the odd one when the team walks happily together with what they work hard for,its just like D:
alright.
i promised i wouldnt do emo.
im sorry.this post is kinda screwed and boring.
thanks for reading till here.
you guys,all the best for this sunday,row all the way. :)
take care of yourselves too,those with injuries.

and i miss school.

i miss 0611,i miss the lecture halls,i miss north canteen,i miss the toilet,i miss the TEAM,i miss nurul,i miss haslinda,i miss alene,i miss ANJU,JEN.
and you.
=((((((((((

the first day.

attachments are back again.

bath,feeds,tpr,medications,iv plugs.
im looking forward to wound dressing,that is if theres any wound to dress.
pics coming soon.
:D

backkkkkk.

screams and cries broke the cold awkward silence as the coffin was lifted into the van.

this is the first time dadeh cried openly,i felt lost.i didnt know what to do as i stay rooted to the ground.

everyone had the same swollen puffy eyes.

well.

life have got to move on still.

on a lighter note,

tomorrow's the start of my 3 weeks attachments at ttsh.

im so excited to wear the uniform ,once again.

the only thing im afraid is i'll yawn in the sister/staff/patients' faces.

oh.how i hate the early mornings(7-8am.)

heres my shcedule.

mon-wed:7am-3pm.

thur-fri:1.30pm-9.30pm.

my lunch break's either 11am-12pm,12pm-1pm and 5pm-6pm,6pm-7pm.

anyone free for lunch or dinner?

ttsh food is good,i tell you.

:D

alright.ciao.gotta sleep earlyyyyy. =)

at peace.

the sight of him laying there peacefully,reminds me of my late lil aunt.

the pearl will guide them there,wherever they heading towards.

go uncle,rest in peace.

we all love you.

on a lighter note,im summoned with my retainers again.

and it hurts me like a bitchhh.

thanks jen,for these days.

:D

manyyy love.

gone.

uncle's 51 and he's gone.

life's short and unpredictable.

resistance is BEAUTIFUL.

it is.

with so many obstacles ahead,i'll do good.

smash 'em all with my tiny palm.

i can do it.

beneath the gates of bad and anxiety,you'll see genevieve smiling.

manyyy love to those who have been making me feel like kazillion dollars.priceless.

what i really want.

its my choice.my life.i feel like ive been tied to some contract.
i dont know.
it feels so unpleasant.
i need to punch somebody now.

seahawks.

GO NOW.

manyyy love.

hug count.

will i get to do hugs count everyday too?

sitz bath,infant bath and feeds.

the oohs and ahhs you'll get to hear if you pass by our clinical labs these days.

caring for infants,if you guessed it correctly.

we were once lil bundles,so cuddly.

and now rascals who scream like crazy.

it got my classmates excited more than A while.

jen and anju wants babiesssssssss.

HEHE.

rainnnnnnnnnn.

random talks eats and walks are always fun.

giggling under a little umbrella in the rain is SO fun.

my pretty DAJIEJIE.HAHAHA.

JIEJIE~

fun talk.

nah.
i dont mean the hotline in the newspaper you dial when you get bored.
talking to the dboaters is a pleasure.
the weather and people.
oh i love my 'sis'.
HAHA.

happppy birthday,CP prawnnn wontonnnn.

to my senior.happppy 19th.
manyyyyy lovvve!

what did irene give you? :D

weightssssssssss.

explosive reps we did today.
i swear i almost couldnt takeee off my sportsbra for bath-my hands wooobbbbled.
and i finally did all my pushups the STANDARD way.

something in me is telling me that things are not going the right way for THAT.
but.
i realise i cant be bothered with it already.
im just gonna enjoy my 3years.
:D

okay.back to paste paste paste.
:))

running away.

dont.

its been a rollercoaster ride,

is it a WANT that can be taken granted of?

the sincerity-it aint there.

forget it.

im not a toy you can dump after having fun.

im moving on,tell me it aint tough.

for you-just go and kiss the wall with your head.

i deflated all my pride but it aint working.

happy ending.

VERY HAPPY ending.
thank you very much.
many love OKAY.

give me that.

i want to fly high on a swing.
feed me lots of BIG rainbow colored lollis till i die.

should i or should i not?

i always find myself desperately searching for excuses to cover up for what you lack.
i shouldnt have done that in the first place,because im seeping so deeply into the soon-to-be-mess which i dont want, to happen at the start of 2007.
so what should i do?

sunflower needs sunshine.

in your race,im last.




(suprisingly,im not upset at all.i just dont understand.i remember telling her im very happy.and the happiness comes truely from my heart.i'll keep this precious and rare happiness forever.)

BABY AIDEN.

all of a sweetie pie.

my lil baby nephew born on 1st jan.

LOVE YOU ALOT ALOT.

:DD

cheekababoommmmmmm!

this is it.

this is what some of us are waiting for and what the rest are dreading.

2007.

a brand new year.

"HAPPY NEW YEAR!",we have been saying since this morning at 12am,some even earlier.

lets pray it'll be HAPPY.

with love and peace.

i should probably sum up what ive got to say about dearest 2006,before welcoming 2007 with a brand new HEART.

a min,a sec.they matters a lot.it got me thinking while we countdown just this morning,about 12hours ago.

2006 have been a hell of a year,with me entering NYP and adapting to a new kinda school routine,joining NYP kayaking team-people i wouldnt forget,rushing to meet project deadlines,having fun fooling around during breaks.

i met new people,lost some.

i may not remember the words you said to me,but i'll never forget the way you guys make me feel.

the period of time when i got so screwed up,i sincerely thank those who stood by me,or behind me to catch me when i fall,and the ones who fall with me.

many a times,i frightened my own guts with the thought of not being able to persevere and survive through the truckload of school,work and trainings.

tremendous confusion became my best friend and i was so ready to follow the emo trend,

WRIST DRAWING.HAHA!

but ive got a strong will in me.

it probably runs in the genes. :D

2006,you've been great,with those screwed up moments,but you make me a stronger person.

a SUPERLADYYY.

i pray 2007 will be a bed of drums and love.

normal GENEVIEVE insanity is gonna resume!