lost.i need some love.

i need some love.

i woke up feeling lost and lack-of-love.
why?

i miss you people.

3rd day at TTSH.

3rd day at ttsh.

if you dont wanna hear about medical diagnosis and hospital rants,you can kindly leave GEN's blog.
thank you.

right.today was definitely better than the previous 2 days when i ran like mad around the ward.
i did the normal parmeters for my cubicles,learnt some dressing,bedsheet changing,and OH,oral feeding!
the ah pek seem really happy with his food and obediently AHH* everytime i stuff the spoon in.HEHE.
near the end of the shift,all of us,yes,even the year2s,were GAGAing over one HOT doc,Dr Jeremy Sun.he's a GM and yea,he's really good looking LA.
i know this lil details cos the yr2s went to look for patients' doc i/c case study.
Doris Foong was wondering why we became so enthu to read patients's notes.
HAHA.

me and my new awesome libran,ash.during break.and our favourite food.=)

i realise im so nice to snap pictures secretly in the ward.HEHE.its just for YOU.

and yea.did you see the man circled in red?he's the HOT doc.=D

anyway.ive been really tired.but will try to blog as much as i can.but for now.just make do with these.haha.

oh ya.there was kyk training today.but the response like OH MY!damien,jingting,joel,daniel,yirui,lyuina,derek,me.PATHETIC.we did weights after 4 short runs.and we had a GOAL SETTING game.PEOPLE,dare to dream!lets move towards our goal!WHEE!

ciao for now.loves.tomorrow's afternoon shift!YAY.

fucking tired.

fucking tired.

today,GEN ran around ward 9c like some freak SIAO.
lenses are drying me,lecturer i/c is squeezing my nerves,patients parameters needed close time monitoring,blisters LOVE me.
damn tired.i dozed off on the way and back,and hitted my head against the bloody rail behind the seat.THRICE!='(
ARGH.
splitting headache.
have got assignments for the care plan and problems.please someone who have alot of medical problems but still able to communicate,BE OUR PATIENT.
HAHA.
anyway.gonna hit my bed again.5am every morning damn.
and oh,pls do come down training tomorrow,NYP kayaking.
DAMIEN have got a TREAT for you people.
he said so.
JUST come down ok.
i cant wait for training tmr,pretty sure i'll regain all my HOLLA-HO energy from training!
WHEEs.
;D
ciao till then.

you make me wanna,so im gonna,drink some WATER.

ps:what a bad last line.whatever.but it RHYMES!
=)

first day of first posting of first semester of first year.

First day of first posting of first semester of first year.

did you feel my heart thumped real fast as i walked into Ward 9c?
the nurses were,surprisingly,warm.(not that i thought of them as evil witches who eat kids.)
but i heard stories of staff nurses DOMINATING and abusing their authority on the newbies.

wells.
humans have their compassionate nature after all.
;D
i was allocated to the NEURO-problems ward.patients in my cubicle,develop diseases that affect their nervous system,nerves.
its a pitiful sight,but well.we are here to do as much as we can,for them.=)

lil did i realise how busy it'll get in the wards.
as care plans were discussed,medication were given,babying-talk(yea.HAHA.)the stubborn ah peks to be good,serving of food,transferring of patients,documenting of TPRs..
i was surprised i didnt get any blisters or whatever feet shit after standing the whole day.
but im feeling a lil under the weather.
must be the sudden need to adapt to the bacteria-ed ward with all the sneezing and bed linen.
must get well soon,and get used to the environment.

the deepest impression i have for my particular cubicle is this particular AH PEK who CLIMBED out of the cord sides,pulled down his pants,and shit & urinated on the floor beside his bed like nobody's business.
not that bad?
the worst of all?
and he does it every 20mins.
get that picture?
imagine the staff nurse and cleaner aunt having to yell and baby-talked him while he put on an innocent face.
seriously,my psychic powers fail me this time.
i feel really sorry for him,thinking that he might not actually know what he's doing,but something just tells me he desperately wants attention,from anyone.
or maybe he wants to get out of hospital asap,so he's trying to anger everybody?
you tell me?

but wells.it was really an eyeopener,getting behind the curtains and seeing the doctors and nurses do their job,so passionately.
OH!speaking of doctors,i saw 3 real HOT ones today.HAHA.
they remind me of your DOGGY,bibi.=)))
ok.bad sidetracking.
HEHE.
anyway.just to let my group11 hons know,
i got to see how Trochea Shiley Tube was changed(with the sputum all squrting out.eew yes.but all of us are so eeky inside.isnt it A-M-A-Z-I-N-G?)
i changed a diaper(YES I DID!)and yea,justin,the DING DONG.=D
i didnt faint.im strong!
im from NYP KAYAKING TEAM!
whee!(X
in fact.i stared at everything i see today,telling myself,THIS IS NATURE,GEN.
and im certain,i got over my SIGHT-fear.
i'll update you more on my TOUCH-fear.
HAHA.

anyway,go try 7-11's CafeSelect HOT CHOCO.
heavenly!
bought it during break.
MMM*

okay.so.my day ended pleasantly though exhausting.
it was a real FUN experience.
i cant wait for tomorrow,when i can face my cubicle patients,with more confidence and PROFESSIONALISM.
=D
GEN=PASSIONATE=PROFESSIONALISM=RESPECT.
i might not be ALL of it now,im taking my BIG STEPS and sprinting all the way!
you shall see.














*putting on my uniform and looking like the BEST nurse there ever was.*


if it makes you happy,go all out to do it.
seeing you happy,im so sure of it.

never felt like this

never felt like this.

ive never feel so relaxed sleeping in,and waking up ,without the bugging feeling,"oh man,there's stuff today."
now.attachment at TTSH starts tomorrow.
did a thorough cleaning and tidying up of MY ROOM.
momo couldnt belief her ears when i told her,"im gonna clean my room tomorrow."
'cause of exams,assignments,projects and trainings,i have been like,er,well,making excuses.
HEHE.
eh wait.im a good grr OK.
;D

anybody nice enough to visit me for lunch or dinner?
heard tons of stories.
im getting like real excited but nervous.
i know what to expect.but it suddenly dawned upon me that i might not know how i will handle the whole situation if it really happen.
i came with a brave and kind(i suppose.)heart to serve the sick.
but seriously.
do they see us as being caring or just sex toys?

i know of real caring and warm-hearted nurses at Singapore General Hospital.
'cause they took care of my dying aunt(she was my closest after my parents)with great love.
you can see their passion for their duty,even doing things within their means.

but do the patients understand?
especially the male patients.
i know guys have raging hormornes(HAHA),but you are there to recuperate,to be treated,not causing tears and humility to nurses.
i used to think NURSING is a lowly status job whereby you wear uniforms,follow doctors,feed patients,clean their asses.
but.i was proved wrong.
go and look at nurses overseas.
they are so highly regarded,for they serve the sick and help them get better.
in fact.
doctors only examine,diagnose and instruct on medication.
it's the nurses who actually plan CARE PLANS to ensure efficient recovery of patients.
its the nurses who are with patients almost every second.
but its also the nurses who get reprimanded if things go wrong.
but when things go well,do nurses hit the headlines?
(on a cheeky note,we nurses get to see stuff you deem as porn or whatever shit.HEHE.)
i mean.its nature.we were born without anything on.
ok.wait.i think im sidetracking.
HAHA.
anyway.
many ask me "gen,tell me,why did you study nursing?you seriously should just do your mass comm."
i know i may seem very playful and nonsensical rubbish most of the times.
but let me warn you.i have split personalities.HAHA.
i mean.each of us have our deep side,agree?
i took up nursing on a very practical or you-may-call-it-typical-singaporean note.
i wanted something to fall back on if i cant do much in my other interests.
there are many things i wanna do.i wanna be everything.
so i'll tell you when i've accomplished them.
but for now.and i mean it now and ever.
nurses are noble.
nurses are great people.
in other words.
look up to nurses,people.
;D



whatever you do,people.its all in your hands.dont let others affect you.having your own mind and discipline helps you to understand yourself a whole lot better.know your limits.




dont ever lie to me.for you'll never know how much i'll hate you.

just you see.

just you see.

listen carefully.
im no stupid fool you can blow hot or cold to.anytime you want.
no way.

right.sorry about the pissed paragraph above.but please do not ignore it.

so i had a pretty fun time yesterday with bibi,jen,van,insulin and new friends.
but it came across as a lil culture shock.
i told you IM INNOCENT.
;D
as the saying goes,a picture speaks a thousand words.
mine SPEAKS more.





















i was kinda fooling while they were hard at work.HEHE.
you see,my friends are GREAT people.
;D

went home around 11+,cab driver of MERC CAB S3881Z is GREAT!
i didnt have enough cash .just 6bucks.but he took me STRAIGHT home!
a BIG thank you to MR MOHD IBQUIL(?) [i cant rmb his name.BOO.]
i BELIEF most chinese uncles werent be THAT nice.
do you agree?

OK.
lets talk about today.
cab down to SCF with derek the WAXED DUCK.
;D
(derek.can i tell your BIG secret?)
HEHE.
paddle and paddle and paddle.precisely.
wahlao.i know i sound really bored today.
HAHA.
dont care.
OH YA.
mr moky was so nice to accompany to get black shoes.
from BATA.
THANKS hon.

i think i know why i just cannot sprout any wisdom today.
THAT is still bugging me.
sorry people.
gonna stop abruptly HERE.
(damn.gen's entry is so SHIT today.)

make peace wih your cells and indulge in yourself.

ibreathewithmyheart is ONE month old!

ibreathewithmyheart IS ONE MONTH old!
a month have past.we always have time hot on our heels..
dont let it burn you.
YOU must burn IT with PASSION.

anyways.just came back from paddling.(the 3 Ds,anju and gen)
itve been like 2weeks since i head down to paddle PROPERLY.
sunny plentTANful day,as usual.
i dont know.but i wasnt really giving all my attention to my strokes.
i just have this BUGGING feeling.
i dont know.
it really feels great when you have the whole sea to yourself(i mean just the 5 of us.),with occasional DUCKTOUR visitors yelling to you to pose pictures.
HAHA.
we dont have to duck the dragonboaters,and other kyk BEGINNERS.
HAHA.
still,we manage to entertain ourselves.check these out.




look at our TWIT CAPTAIN.
;D








vain FACIAL FOAM guys.
any advetisers searching for models?
our 3 Ds are free ANYTIME.







everyone have a TWIT in them. X)









ERM.oops.










MR MOKY's new invention.
tissue wanton in all chilli spices.=D











i thought what it was
that caught THEIR attention.

ooh.its 5pm.
gonna get out of the house and head to STEAMBOAT!
whees!

when the going gets shit,just step it.

chilled.finally.

CHILLED.finally.


check out my morning breakfast. ;D

preeety!






right.today,thursday,24 of august 2006,marks the end of GEN's mugged-eyebags-mooncake face.
i can finally spread out my wings and flee to INDULGE in my own world.
HAHA.
so yea.finished the paper early,was 1st few to leave.
so with ju,we met MR moky(you-wanna-know-why-can-ask-me. ;D) and got THERE.
everything's settled.
finally.
BUT.but.but.
(ok.this you dont have to know.)
we headed to BORING novena square.crapped.bitched.comment.FIGHT.
HAHA.
we entertained ourselves with MPH's HUMOUR section.look at these!













three words.CUTE-LIKE-HELL.

(click the pic to see their mood.before that.
guess first u ASS.NO CHEATING!)

we started fumbling with PORN/shit-any-age-can-see.HEHE.

i so desperately need a job.so i turned to this.
wasted my time.



MR moky,he can obviously do it BETTER than you.
X)





it was this then sent us HYSTERICAL.

ERM.guys.is this true?

HAHAHAHAHAHA.(dont be shy.you can msg me.=D)







im STILL your innocent grr.=DDD
(mr moky forced me.HEHE)







i just needed to share this with you.HEHE.










my lovely TWITS.




my new favorite 90 cents must-drink.
CHEAP AH!





















my new MISSY role model.HAHA.
they dress up to make YOU DONATE.
PLEASE DONATE.
thank you very much.


just a random thought.
HAHA.
you know what?
i think im really bad at recognising voices or maybe its just while im sleeping,im really BLUR.
like,DUH!
and those ICKY dumb asses will IMITATE others and disturb me when im already DISTURBED.
"hello hello hello GEN!!!you really dont recognise my voice?!"*pinches their nose while talking*(i think.HEHE)
yea,and i'll go ALL confused and start screaming and yelling into the phone.
HUR.thats me,for you.=D
speaking about voices..
just the other day,MOKY and justin-the-duck were telling me how different i sound over the phone.
Moky described it as "DEEP"(make me feel so MAN.gag.haha)
Justin say i sound calm-ER than my real' frantic' voice.
DAMN.
"can you stop it and please decide properly which GEN you wanna be?the calm or frantic one?"
BOO JUSTIN.
HAHA.
i mean.do all of us have 2 voices?
some expert,please tell me.

anyway people.check these out.HILARIOUS.http://museum-of-twits.blogspot.com/2005/09/how-to-do-your-friendster-profile.html and http://twitionary.blogspot.com/.
i almost died laughing.

you gave a sundae to gen,she've been happy since then.

in my own closet.

in my own closet.

the no-paper day.
im feeling all lazy and sucky today.
so feel like lazing and MOOING on my queen-sized bed,the WHOLE day.

argh.

anyway.im feeling all emo today,so its a good time to rant about certain stuff that just pops into my mind.just random stuff.

ive been very straightforward and honest,till now.
i mean,im still honest,but ive learnt to twist things a lil,'cause it gets very tiring when you have to explain EVERYTHING to different people and with them worrying for you.
so yea,a lil white lie here and there,in my opinion,doesnt hurt.not at all.
why should you let me bother you?
We all lie. For a number of reasons. We lie to make ourselves look good, we lie to get ourselves out of trouble,to gain certain benefits, to run away from responsibilities. The list goes on.

you dare say you never?

ok.drop this subject.

it amazes me everytime i people-watch.anywhere at anytime.i'd sit and stare at some random stranger and wonder,"what's his story?"

We all have different sides we portray to different people. Sometimes, we show a multitude of different characters and moods to the same person at different points in time.

i secretly took a friend of mine as my OBSERVATION subject.
and she totally reinforced the entire idea of how people are never what they seem they are.she seems like a total carefree soul,bitching around,with no worries or cares about the doings and judgements she got from the world.

but ive learnt.That she is not what she seems to be, because deep down, in that happy veneer, is someone who has lied and been lied to, been happy and sad, been disappointed, been loved. she has a story to tell.

We all do.

seriously.i dont know how i appear to each and everyone of you.
im not trying to be negative when posting entries about people being fake,lying,backstabbing and all.
it just is the reality.those of you still in your dreams,please wake up and look at this world.
its evolving real badly.anybody wanna go back to last century?invite me along.thanks.

at the end of the day,should anything happen,its for me to bear.NOT you.

the smile you gave me,its for me to save.dont run away,cause it's always you who make my day.

the 1026 COMMUNICATION PAPER.

the 1026 COMMUNICATION paper.

yeap!i did it.i mugged like hell this morning for about 3 hours and i got all my facts right!
ok not all.but MOST. ;D

before getting into my COMMUNICATION lecture FOR YOU..HAHA.lets talk about today.
(1)momo woke me up at ungodly 6AM & gave me a lecture.i dont think i was dreaming.was i?i remembered nothing except that she's gonna confiscate my lappy,cause of my "ACCUMULATION OF BAD DEEDS".anyone wanna TONPANG my lappy for a few days?HAHA.
(2)woke up and got a gut feeling that something's bad gonna happen.BOY was i right.M days SUCK.
(3)left my phone to charge for like 10 whole hours,it should be like fully ready to fight off my calls,msgs and songs right?but NO!it BACKSTABBED me,showing only a streak of RED energy.DAMN.
(4)my earpiece BROKE.the stupid what-you-call?earphone?whatever.i so need a new one!

AHH!there.4.OH MY!SUAY digit 4.4 SUAY things crush me on EARLY tuesday morning.RAH!

lets talk about the more MATURE stuff now.*grins*
COMMUNICATION.how do YOU people define it?
i have,all along,regard communication as one IMPORTANT factor THE ONE had infused into my life.
i love to observe people.the way they talk,the way they think,their gestures,their reactions to different things.
the world around each of us,its SO different,thats what make IT interesting!
but i seem to have a stronger hold over NON-VERBAL communication.
many a times,i FEEL something YOU DONT.my instincts or what you call it?GUT FEELING.im proud of 'em.

each of us have different perceptions and and views of a certain subject.
say,you're pissed with somebody.what would you do?
(a)swallow everything down and torture yourself.
(b)EVERY corner of the room seems to know WHAT,WHO,WHEN except for the SUSPECT who's being deemed e MURDERER w/o a chance for any explanation.
(c)NEGOTIATE,make peace.NO world war III.

(eh.this is not some kinda survey you can cheat and PICKED the NICEST answer OK.even if you dont say,your heart already knows the answer.)

i'll definitely grab the person and sit down for a talk.or.i'll never be able to do my other stuff properly.even if the person's at fault,i MYSELF will feel guilty and BUGGY-it's like i did not solve some math question properly.call me weirdo.but thats me,for you.;)

sometimes,to some people,crying is form of communication.verbal and non verbal.
you cry for JOY.you cry when you FEAR.
you cry when you get 49 for exams.
you cry when everything around you just crush and collapse on you.
we cry for different things.
some people CRIES FOR ATTENTION.are you ONE?
dont come to me.i gave all my attention to GEN. ;DDD
this is just how we express ourselves.

so yea.i know im gonna rock the world the way i want it.and you have no rights to stop me.
im in FULL CONTROL.*grins and JUMPS AWAY*

this is a no photos,no font size,no colors entry.(except cool BLACK)
its PERFECT just being itself.

oh wait.before i go.i received a really unique msg the other day.let me share it with you.
"do you take me to be your lawfully loveable friend,to have and to hold,for rich quotes or corny jokes,in text messagings and in poor signal,till low batt do us part?"
i think this message can practically put a smile to anyone's face.thks dude.you always make me laugh.=]

what a nice ending.NICE ONE,GEN.
HAHA.
ciao.loves.

sometimes it takes only one hug to make me smile,to make me feel loved,make me feel that i own the world's most beautiful things.

long-waited MONDAY.

Long-waited MONDAY.
yes.
i couldnt wait for 1033 to be OVER.
the questions were predictable.
but you have to blame my poor,deprived-of-sleep brain cells from getting jittery and losing MUCH OF MY INFO.
my brain was quite upset,you can say that.
my heart went THUD* for a moment,but it decided to PUMP even harder and inform all my nerves to NOT be dishearten,the HEART IS STILL HERE!
;D
so yeaps,all my cells,tissues and organs pulled themselves together.
brain cells were sent for EXTRA revival pills.
so now,GEN IS ALL CHARGED FOR NEXT BATTLE!=]
(haha,sounds so..whats-that-word?.hmm.somebody.tell me.)

right on.so.lets talk about the HAPPY things that happen..YESTERDAY!
the NEW BALANCE REAL RUN 2006.
i really cant describe with words,the AMOUNT of fun we had yesterday.
you JUST got to experience it for yourself.
so,join us next year yea?!
without further ado,lets bring up the pictures of THE day!


























































too many photos!had a hard time selecting and SQUEEZING all of 'em.
HAHA.
i myself can FEEL the fun,just by looking at these,how can you not?
;D
so after the run,we went to TAN.(despite the fact that most of us had papers the next day,which's TODAY.HEHE.)
i see BEN&JERRY'S!
(JUSTIN..................HOHO.)
and you know what?i took XS but ms mok says it look totally like i wore my boyfriend's top.DAMN.
im REALLY trying SO hard to GROW..
i wanna grow,i wanna grow grow grow........!
ok.
i think it's a pretty long entry about yesterday with those pictures.
ive loads about today too..
so.i accompany anju to HOUGANG POLYCLINIC.
we waited 2 freaking hours!
and we still had to pay $26.30.
damn.
should have gone to PRIVATE CLINIC which would have save our time,save a few more dollars! (all the doctors ive seen so far,cost me less then $25 LA!)
anyway.
anju ask me to do her a favor.HAHA.
PLEASE PEOPLE.DONT EVER STEP INTO ANY POLYCLINICS.
OH NO.will the polyclinic people come and find me?!*gasp*

(ARGH.i think i sound so unlike the usual me.whatever.)

anyway.took a few interesting photos today.so.here they are.


aint this AUNTY a STYLO-MILO?
HAHAHA.
so HIP please..
boots,NY cap,red HOT skirt and everthing. ;D

amaz-ZINE.vitamins and all.
trust myself to not seen THESE before.
but i bet you guys never did too.=)

ms mok ms gurung and ms goh's gonna die soon with our daily dose of 5ocents icecream cones.

HAHA

ok.we admit.it's the guy we think is good(cute i mean),not the drink.

HEHE.

my entry's damn long today.really sleepy now.will be back tomorrow(i know you cant wait!)for more juicy heartfelt thoughts!

timecheck:1220am.

ciao.loves.(wish me luck for tomorrow,er.i mean later's COMMUNICATION paper.will talk about communication in my next entry!have a great day ahead,lovelies!

X)ps:didnt play around with font colors today,YAWNS!

NEW BALANCE REAL RUN 2006

NEW BALANCE REAL RUN 2006.

RAH-ing good time of my life.

Road 6km. Sand 1.6km. Jungle trail 2.4km

people from all walks of life welcomed the start of the run with smiles and enthuisiasm plastered on their different-colored faces.
the event was as loud as the bang that shouts RUN PEOPLE,RUN!
will defintely be back next year.
TEAM NYP,YOSH!

sorry people,i will add more CHIM(;D) english about every CM and INCH of the event on..tuesday,most probably.(and the PHOTOS too.too many!=D)
got to go off now,to mug for my toughest paper,BIO SCIENCE tomorrow at 830am.DAMN.
so ya.dont be sad.will update real soon.less then 55hours ok?
;D
dont miss me.
erm.wait.
MISS ME ok?
X)
ciao.loves.YAWNS.

no-training-saturday

NO-TRAINING-SATURDAY.
yea.(exams' fault!)
and it feels totally weird.
i miss the DIRTY SALTY kallang water.
HAHA.
and i missed the times when i zoomed in T1.=D

so.we went to collect our race packs for NEW BALANCE REAL RUN 2006 around 11
my no. is 0446.i wonder who got 0444 or 4444.
HAHA.
but well.who knows.they may end up being the ones winning.
all the best to people who's up for the race tomorrow.HAVE FUN!
BE WELL-HYDRATED!
NYP TEAMS,YOSH PEOPLE! ;D

so ya.it was another quite successful mugging session at AMK macs with my team.
at least for ME.
indulging in GREAT music from sean's(thks mate!)& JOHNNY BOY(!)ipods,i grab hold of my most POWER-DER-FUL pen and smart brain cells(as usual like DUH)
and conquered 1/2(almost) of my 4.5cm-thick BIO-SCIENCE book.(yea,go & measure.=D)
and besides that,i could still squeeze in some time for ENTERTAINMENT.
woots.
*claps for gen*
;D
common sense will tell you what we would do.
oh oh.but no.
WE,my team and i,are SPECIAL people.
we do what YOU dont.
lets just say,
-we SING as loudly as we can,even though we have CRACKY voices.
hehe.
-we GROAN for food.i mean,most girls will go on diet right?
we couldnt care less.=)
-we,er,take really COOL pictures.how cool?cooler than north&south poles.
but our photos are infused with our HOTTEST,TRUEST HUMAN PASSION.[=
there more then that.
but.it will take me FOREVER to explain to you SILLIES.
so ya.go back under your blankets and CRY ok?do that for me,as a favor.
thank you very much.=D
(what a shUCKing BITCHY entry.sorry people,owner's having AMS. ;D)
im a lil lazy to post the pictures ive taken randomly the past few days.
hmm.
okok.i hear YOUR CRIES.shall do so.here goes.



























check out my FRIEND's NEW pencil case.[=
anyway.i seriously dont belief colin and kero(you know who they are)walk past my school.
dont ask me why.my psychic powers SAY SO.=D
really tired.got to wake up at 430am tomorrow.
not ungodlt this time round.its.WAHLAO EH.
RAH!
new balance real run,here i come!
SENTOSA.
whees!

ciao.YAWN.loves.

the 1028 paper.

the 1028 paper.
well well.
remember i said in my previous entry that SHS exam setters have ZERO CREATIVITY?
let me correct that.
HAHA.
i ASSUME that the questions will be pretty much similiar to previous exam questions,so...HEHE
but in turns out,the setters must have sat down with my PRIMARY SCHOOL maths teacher,MRS CHOY-LEE SHU HUI for coffee and discussed about giving us BEAT-AROUND-THE-BUSH,CRAMP-OUR-BRAIN-ALREADY-KISIAO-MUSCLE questions.
i'll tell you about that CHOY CHOY later ;D
so ya.
faces plastered with the DEFEAT word.
faces plastered with the GONER word.
faces plastered with the I-need-sleep word.
im surprised our dearest CHINA friends couldnt attempt most questions.
really surprised.
for me.
i think my MCQs can save me.the SAQs are questions which i HONESTLY understand with GEN's COMMON SENSE.
hahaha.

okay.about that CHOY woman.we hated each other.
HAHA.
i was her worst student(i think)and she was my most hated and never-will-i-ever-like-her MATHS teacher.
she made me afraid of the LIL NUMBERS and DIAGRAMS.
but i proved her wrong when i got to secondary school,thanks to MR HENG,my beloved secondary math teacher.
he helped me make friends with THEM.
i love MR HENG!where are you now?!
(sorry.i hope i didnt bore you with this MISSING-PERSON-SEARCH..HEHE)

anyway.i told anju and hsingyee.
i ruined all my chances.
i destroy everything.
now you know why only US can make US miserable?
i think.i think.i think its a goner LA.
im not talking about exams OK.
i shall not have so high hopes the next time round.
im gonna breathe in breathe out.
;D
okay.i have not been taking pictures these days.
*hello!how to take?need to MUG.im a mugger YOU SEE*(high-pitchy)=)))
will post LOADS after next thur!
i cant wait!
anw.im lazy to play around with fonts,size and colors today.so ya.
gen's truest.in BLACK AND WHITE.
;DDD

ciao.loves.
(ps:its 1033-bio science up on MONDAY.830am paper!who wanna give me morning call?)

gen=highly motivated

gen=highly motivated

right on.im continually increasing my motivation level to do well.
the NEED to do well.
the WANT to do well.
the MUST to do well.

today's sociology paper went quite well,thanks to arty for printing me past year questions. ;D
and i realised something.
SHS(i dont know about the other schools)exams setters have ZERO creativity.
all,yes ALL the questions are the same.EXACTLY the same.
im not lying.serious.
cant they even change the words IN the sentence?!
i think their doing is really like DECEIVING THEMSELVES and US.
it does us NO good.
well.i think i should just abruptly stop here,cause i cant do much as a student as well.
seriously i hope they put more challenging questions in future.(yes,more cramming of notes,splitting headaches,sleepless nights,but people,JUST PAY ATTENTION LOR.=D)


"you'll be feeling a lil short-tempered today,so stay away from those people you'll easily start disputes with."-for 18aug,fri

HAHA.
i happen to see this lil 'weather broadcast' for LIBRANS(yours truely!)in the newspapers.
wait.you must be thinking.gen crazy about horoscopes?
NO.
trust me.i only seek 'em for some AMUSEMENT.
but sometimes you just got to admit this lil comments on horoscopes are so DARN true.haha.
or maybe to some of you,it's just PLAIN COINCIDENT.HAHA.
im curious now.who actually believes in these?TELL ME!;D

okay.
timecheck:10.55pm.
status check:splitting headache but HIGH raging motivation for MUG. ;))

i love mugging.REALLY!
ciao.loves.
[ps:sory ju,mhy,alfrey for my AMS just now.HAHA.i love you guys.E>]

que sera sera

"Que sera sera,
whatever will be,will be.
the future's not ours to see,
que sera sera,
what will be will be."

as a baby,my aunt used to BRIBE me to sleep with THIS.
:D
it came back to me when ms mok and i were trying to recall the lil things we used to enjoy when we were lil.
this song means ALOT.no matter if your 1 or 100.
i realised.alot of things in this world,after it happens,we cant really salvage the whole situation.
we are always finding ways and means AND excuses to SAVE our own faces.
but in fact.
even if you managed to SUPERGLUE and fixed the broken vase pieces,the SCAR is there.
you can easily trace it back with your bare fingers.it's there.
now people.put your hand to your heart.tell me is this true?
i know its easier said then done to say DONT WORRY.everything's under control.
most of the times,we feel we are the MOST UNLUCKY PEOPLE,the suay ones.
but look around.
there are people without feet,yet you complained 'cause you couldnt get hold of the limited edition NIKE or TOMMY HILFIGERS.
its always because of US that cause misery to US.
it's actually all in our own hands.
if everybody in this world can think before doing silly stuff(including yours truly)
we would see less of those wrinkled foreheads and there will be no need for botox or whatever shit.
there would be more real people instead of PLASTIC ones.
but true.tell me.who in this world isnt PLASTIC?
nobody is perfect,this i know before you're born.(:
but nobody is TRUE either.nobody is real.
we have a backstabber spirit hiding beneath each and everyone of us.
you dare say you dont?
really dont have?
then you dont belong in this world.
admit it.
we humans ARE selfish.
we fight to live.
we fight to get the best score in class.
we fight to be the fittest in sports.
we fight to raise up to the highest rank at work.
we fight FOR OUR OWN RIGHTS.
we fight the person who STEAL our girlfriends or boyfriends.
we even fight for food.(singaporeans especially.)thank you very much HUH.
most of the time when we fight,we actually just wanna win.
most of the time when we fight,nobody can see our weapons.
they FEEL it.

talking about fight,now i know why Miss Universe always say they want WORLD PEACE.
actually they arent at peace with themselves either.
one word.DUMB.
they wanna show how pure their minds are?
or they wanna show if their new ATTAINED power can change the world?
dumb.dumb.dumb.

i wanna breathe properly.ive decided not to cling onto anything anymore.i dont want any more disappointments.i'll just let nature takes it course.
whatever will be.will be.

as far as i know.this entry contains just MY OWN opinions.i dont mean to hurt anybody.
if i offend you,no sorries.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOKHSINGYEE!(:
today we(ju,alfrey,jerm and GEN.) surprised ms mok with a tiny piece of cake.
you should see how touched she was.but too bad.i didnt capture the SHEDDING-OF-TEARS part.
HAIYO.
"bitch,continue tickling the laughter out of me.be a smart bitch OK."
happy 17th.
(:
here are the pitsies today.









i left 'em around 4 to mug with von. :D

this is a really cool cafe.make one feel like you're back in the 60's. (:
can you belief its located at a CC?
yes.community centre.
im not telling you which one. :D














plays really cool oldies and the ambience IS.JUST.THERE.
woots.
the food makes me drool,just by erm,smelling.=D
i so wanna be this lil northland pri boy.I WANT TO BE HOLDING THAT CHOPSTICKS!

















lastly..

salt or pepper?
neither right?
i know your heart just chose GEN.(:
THANK YOU VERY MUCH!
;D








ciao.loves.
(ps:my 1st paper starts TOMORROW.and im still blogging here.WHEES!)
SOCIOLOGY ROCKS.it teaches me to make friends with everybody.=D
WHEES!